Loss of Motivation

I have been wondering lately whether I should take the bold step to improve my current state. I am not someone who complains at every single thing. My tolerance threshold is generally high and I could adapt pretty well to most circumstances. I could even sacrifice my miserable personal time for official things that need to be done.

Lately, the self have changed.

I found myself grumbling more, so much so that sometimes I sort of dislike the self. Nothing seems to interest me too. Not even the K-lessons which I used to enjoy very much. At times, the thought of coming to work irritates me and I could even develop Monday blues three days in advance. At the extreme, I was contemplating to just throw in the white towel or even taking a sip of those medication that could make me sleep better at night.

I have tried to look on the bright side and take things easy. Somehow, somewhat, things and/or people with or without dealings with me just like to cross my path. No matter how hard I steered clear of them.

It is really unfair.

I am not asking for the sky or trying to outdo anyone. They can take the credits all they like. I am just asking for a sense of reasonableness, fairness and justice.

Perhaps the time is not ripe for the retributions.

Or maybe I should just take the bold step now.